Stepping Back

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Dear dedicated readers,

First of all thank you for reading still, even though I post so erratically.

Second of all I hope you read my Facebook post, but for those who haven't its brief update time: I went to the Urgent Care Clinic at Hotel Dieu with suicidal ideologies.  The doctor asked me what I wanted him to do about it and then sent me to Queens Counselling, where I was told that my university goals were unachievable and I should consider college. (Side note, I had been thinking about this for awhile but seriously uncool to tell a suicidal person their goals are stupid and to give up).

A week later I get a call from Queens Health services; they got my urgent care report and wanted to see me.  So i go in to see one of their doctors who asks me what I want them to do.  I.DO.NOT.KNOW.I.JUST.WANT.HELP.

SOOOO I figured doctors are not going to help me.

I have quit my job (the pain was too much)
I withdrew from school (got the email today that my appeal to drop my courses was granted)
I am going to physio therapy and massage therapy
I am going to see my psychologist (soonest she could see me was 2 weeks out, but at least I will be going)
My mom came and cleaned my house and set me back on track (I just have to keep it clean now)
I will be working to eat healthy, exercise and keep the house livable.
Being a grown-up without the stress of work and school.  A fake grownup

Thank god my parents are able to support me.

And I will be applying to college for September.  Hopefully I'll be able to succeed at college in a way I could never at Queen's.

So we'll see where I end up.  Trying my best to keep it together and not to scare the people who love me off.

Well thats the update,

Thank you for your time.

Love,

Jess




Comments

  1. elrum07801 Dec 2016, 16:27:00

    Couldn't scare me off if you tried <3 so much love for you girl. Only good things to come. New goals, new direction and new success <3

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  2. elrum07801 Dec 2016, 16:27:00

    - beth

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