The Home Treatment Plan

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Heyyo, life is going pretty okay.  I am glad to have left Homewood.  I see my family doc every 2 weeks, starting next week I will see a psychologist twice a week, and yesterday I started seeing a physiotherapist twice a week.  Treatment is busy

Overall my mood is pretty good actually, I am just exhausted.  Walking around the block will wipe me out for the day.  BUT I've been out skiing a couple times and lasted about an hour and that has been super fun.  I went bowling with my family for TWO hours.  Wins. After bowling I felt like crap naturally, but it was good while it lasted.  I love bowling.  I hope bowling dates are still a thing (wink wink nudge nudge future boyfriend).

I think overall I sit around doing nothing a lot less at home than I did at Homewood.  I still haven't started therapy yet though.

My family doc is sending me to a fibromyalgia clinic to be assessed.  That could explain the exhaustion and some of the pain.  The problem is there really isn't a treatment for fibromyalgia, except basically what I am doing.   With physio we are stretching out a lot of my leg muscles that are too tight and straining my back, and then will be strengthening my core.  I just have to remember to get those exercises into my schedule.

Watching all the St. Patrick's Day shenanigans really made me miss Kingston and all the people I have there.  I have the best girl friends there that talk to me every day but it is still really hard being distanced from them.  Hopefully I will get to visit them in the near future, but they are busy girls and I don't really have the stamina for a 3.5hr drive.

That's it for now, have a great day

Jess

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