Still Here: England Today!

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Hi everyone,

I know it has been awhile since I wrote.  I have been very busy preparing for my trip.  I leave for the airport in 2 hours!

I'm so excited and more than a little nervous.  My bag was 56 lbs which is over the limit so I spent the morning with my mom trying to bring down the weight.  Hopefully it reads 49.2 at the airport...

My recovery seems to be steady and I'm slowly getting more energy.  The prof for my program overseas understands my condition and is willing to give me accommodations as needed; He seems really nice over email!

I'm meeting some of my closest friends at the airport as they're in my program too.  We're hoping we can get our seats switched to be close to each other on the flight, but who knows how that will go.

I'm most worried for having to bring all my meds and supplements through security.  I'm worried they'll question the amount I have.

Hope you have a wonderful, sunny day today!  It feels like summer at home.

Love
Jess

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