School, Friends, and Marijuana

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Hey y'all.

I have been okay.  I started school last week.  I'm taking abnormal psychology and fundamental of academic writing online.  I haven't written an essay since high school so hopefully I learn how to write papers well for university.  I am struggling to stay focused when studying though.  I find I can only manage about 1/2 an hour before my brain starts to fog and information isn't processed.  Staying caught up with 2 courses will be a challenge.  

I'm finding it really hard to be away from Queen's and from all my friends I have there. I see events and things posted online about the goings on back in Kingston and it instantly darkens my mood. The reality is I'm just not well enough to be living on my own right now.

Luckily, I've reconnected with some good friends from high school that still live in the area.  It's good to go out, get out of the house and spend time laughing with people.

Silly me though, went out drinking thursday night and then went to a friend's birthday party Friday night and majorly overdid it.  The fibro is flaring friends.  Most of the muscles in my lower body are in pain.  My right hip screams in pain whenever I move. I think it was worth it though.  I saw some people I haven't seen in years.

I spent a lot for today sleeping off the past couple days... and will probably go back to bed for a nap shortly.  I've been having a lot of fun which is hard for me to do when I'm so tired all the time.

I've recently been trying medical marijuana.  It helps a bit with the pain and is supposed to help with sleep quality.  I haven't noticed a change in my sleep (I still wake up completely unrested).  I have tried 3 different strains so far.  It's hard to admit that I'm taking marijuana due to the stigma around it, but I set out to tell you my story and I want you all to get the full picture.  I can't take the traditional fibromyalgia drugs (Cymbalta/Lyrica) because I take an SSRI for depression.  And my symptoms affect my life in such a way that leaving them untreated severely damages my quality of life.  So the doctor and I (and my mom) decided trying marijuana was the best choice.

I hope all is well with you,

xoxo

Jess

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