Sleep, Sleep and More Sleep

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Hi there,

How are you? Hope you're well.

I'm frustrated.  I'm having a hard time motivating myself to get out of bed.  I've been sleeping 14+ hours lately but I'm just so tired.  I never wake up refreshed.  I try to get out with friends, but honestly my energy is sucking lately.  I don't have the motivation to brush my teeth anymore.  To be honest, it's been years since I had the motivation to shower regularly.  It takes an insane boost of energy for me to shower.  Only on my best days can I manage it, and even then I have to sit down part way through.

I don't really want to do anything lately.  Watching tv is hard, I can't focus and hardly anything interests me.

School is also frustrating because I cannot focus on the textbook.  I can read the same paragraph 5 times and still not tell you what it was about.  Anyone have any advice on overcoming brainfog?  Or focusing on material?

I think my family doctor has given up.  She doesn't seem to know what to do now.  My fibro specialist is still hopeful and full of ideas though.  Unfortunately there is no pill that will give me energy.  Its something I have to build up on my own.

That being said, I've been going on walks everyday with my dog.  That's good for me.  But I hate it.  My hip has been bugging me every time I walk.

I haven't been using the marijuana because I don't have the motivation to set up the vapourizer.  Or a lot of the time I just forget it's an option.  I'm my own worst enemy.

I've even missed some of my other daily medications I've been so unmotivated.  Self care is the first to go with depression.

Moral of the story today is I am extremely frustrated with myself and do not know what to do.

Thank you for your continued support

xoxo

Jess

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