Gagging Update, Self Image, and a Naturopath
It just gets gross from here.
Hey y'all
The constant nausea and random gagging has turned into actual vomit. Every night, a few hours after dinner, I see my dinner in a whole new light. It's brutal. Im hoping its a side effect of the antibiotics and it will go away when I finish them. Only 11 more days!
In other news, I'm discovering just how bad my self image has gotten. I have not posted a picture of myself on instagram or changed a profile picture in months (which is weird for my generation). I don't have an actual picture of me I like that has been taken in the last year. I'm not a big fan of what I see in the mirror. I guess that's what being sick does to you. I've gained weight, my face looks ill, and I'm just not happy with how I look.
That being said, I know I'm very strong for going through what I am going through and I am proud of that. So my self esteem is not completely shot.
I often take days to answer my friends over text or messaging and I'd like to apologize for that. A lot of the time i just don't feel well enough to talk.
I have seen a naturopath. She was very nice. I told her my entire story (took about an hour, and it was the quick, strictly medical story). She thinks my issues may stem for the mono I had when i was 16. Everything could be a result of Mononucleosis. She also interpreted the lyme testing results from the states. She says it is pretty positive I have a chronic infection. The ambiguous part is what it is. She is not convinced I have lyme, but it's still a contender.
She had me fill out a health appraisal which has different sections that look at the different organ systems and body functions. I scored particularly high (meaning bad) in thyroid, adrenal glands, mood, and menopause. The mood section is really no surprise because you all know I have depression and it is perfectly reasonable to be depressed when one is constantly ill and in pain. Thyroid is interesting because my thyroid blood work has always come back fine. She thinks my adrenal glands are seriously messed up though. I scored highest in that category. Menopause... Is because I have hot flashes and am tired and the brain fog and an inability to concentrate (I consulted the appraisal to see what I checked off). No, I am not going through menopause at 20. I just have dumb generic symptoms that could literally be anything. Which is why doctors are baffled and stumped as to what to do. It's extremely frustrating.
She also sent me for Electro-dermal Screening. Which sounds real hokey if you look it up online. But mom and I are keeping an open mind because my other doctors seem to be at a loss as what to do next.
The testing was interesting. I couldn't really understand how it works (Brain fog strikes again), but it had to do with an electric current, acupuncture points and food wavelengths. The testing is primarily used to test for food intolerances and other allergies. I get results on Monday and I will be sure to share them with all of you. I'm mainly worried the test will show I'm lactose intolerant, because there is no way I could give up cheese or ice cream.
Also, I've been sleeping more. I know, how can this girl sleep more? But I get up to 14 hours a night now. And sometimes i still need a nap after that. Naps can be 1-3 hours. But no matter how much I sleep, more or less, I'm always exhausted. I wake up exhausted. I go to bed exhausted. There is never a time where I have more energy.
The gluten free thing is going well. I've had a lot of burgers without the bun. The Naturopath was happy I had stopped eating gluten. Wonderful. I miss it a lot. I have made gluten free lemon bars, gluten free donuts, and gluten free bread. All okay but not as good as they would be with gluten.
Sorry for the all over the place nature of this post. I was trying to get all my ideas down and my brain is extra foggy today.
As I write this I am trying to keep about 8 pills down and my dinner. Wish me luck.
Jess
Hey y'all
The constant nausea and random gagging has turned into actual vomit. Every night, a few hours after dinner, I see my dinner in a whole new light. It's brutal. Im hoping its a side effect of the antibiotics and it will go away when I finish them. Only 11 more days!
In other news, I'm discovering just how bad my self image has gotten. I have not posted a picture of myself on instagram or changed a profile picture in months (which is weird for my generation). I don't have an actual picture of me I like that has been taken in the last year. I'm not a big fan of what I see in the mirror. I guess that's what being sick does to you. I've gained weight, my face looks ill, and I'm just not happy with how I look.
That being said, I know I'm very strong for going through what I am going through and I am proud of that. So my self esteem is not completely shot.
I often take days to answer my friends over text or messaging and I'd like to apologize for that. A lot of the time i just don't feel well enough to talk.
I have seen a naturopath. She was very nice. I told her my entire story (took about an hour, and it was the quick, strictly medical story). She thinks my issues may stem for the mono I had when i was 16. Everything could be a result of Mononucleosis. She also interpreted the lyme testing results from the states. She says it is pretty positive I have a chronic infection. The ambiguous part is what it is. She is not convinced I have lyme, but it's still a contender.
She had me fill out a health appraisal which has different sections that look at the different organ systems and body functions. I scored particularly high (meaning bad) in thyroid, adrenal glands, mood, and menopause. The mood section is really no surprise because you all know I have depression and it is perfectly reasonable to be depressed when one is constantly ill and in pain. Thyroid is interesting because my thyroid blood work has always come back fine. She thinks my adrenal glands are seriously messed up though. I scored highest in that category. Menopause... Is because I have hot flashes and am tired and the brain fog and an inability to concentrate (I consulted the appraisal to see what I checked off). No, I am not going through menopause at 20. I just have dumb generic symptoms that could literally be anything. Which is why doctors are baffled and stumped as to what to do. It's extremely frustrating.
She also sent me for Electro-dermal Screening. Which sounds real hokey if you look it up online. But mom and I are keeping an open mind because my other doctors seem to be at a loss as what to do next.
The testing was interesting. I couldn't really understand how it works (Brain fog strikes again), but it had to do with an electric current, acupuncture points and food wavelengths. The testing is primarily used to test for food intolerances and other allergies. I get results on Monday and I will be sure to share them with all of you. I'm mainly worried the test will show I'm lactose intolerant, because there is no way I could give up cheese or ice cream.
Also, I've been sleeping more. I know, how can this girl sleep more? But I get up to 14 hours a night now. And sometimes i still need a nap after that. Naps can be 1-3 hours. But no matter how much I sleep, more or less, I'm always exhausted. I wake up exhausted. I go to bed exhausted. There is never a time where I have more energy.
The gluten free thing is going well. I've had a lot of burgers without the bun. The Naturopath was happy I had stopped eating gluten. Wonderful. I miss it a lot. I have made gluten free lemon bars, gluten free donuts, and gluten free bread. All okay but not as good as they would be with gluten.
Sorry for the all over the place nature of this post. I was trying to get all my ideas down and my brain is extra foggy today.
As I write this I am trying to keep about 8 pills down and my dinner. Wish me luck.
Jess
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